smells like sunshine

malay ko kung bakit yan ang title ko pero feel ko lang magtyp

"wala na yatang ibang magagawa kundi tumawa..." -mata, mojofly

hindi ko feel magblog pero gusto ko lang sabihin na malabo lang ang lahat ng mga tao. siguro sinabi ko dati na hindi ganun kaweird ang mga taong nakilala ko pero hindi yun totoo. mga shy lang sila nung time na yun.

at ngayon kalog na kung kalog.

shet, astig si tazha. read her blog. YM the link from me since i dont think she wants it publicized. anyway..

chatting with justin kanina at nagddrama siya. ipinagtaka ko lang kung paano ako nakakapagblog ng tagalog at nakikipagchat ng ingles, seryoso nakapagtataka na hindi ako hesitant na makipagconverse sa mga lumang kaibigan sa wikang dayuhan pero hirap sa paggamit nito sa mga newfound friends. seriously. i am thinking in tagalog now. but im trying to make it into english.

it doesnt feel right for me to write in filipino. it sneds a message to myslef that ia ma depressed which i may be. sometimes i dont know anymore..

im trying to type in englsih and it is surprisingly hard. i think and talk fdast in english. hiany hinay lang pag tagalog at feel ko yun ang gusto kong gawin ngayon. ang magbagal muna.

so ngayon feel ko super duper conyo na ng aing blog dahi pabalikbalik ako sa english tapos filipino..

shet i want to be un bangag modes. and i know i cant. maybe tomorrow i will think that i do not want to go to school anymore..
shit. i hate the feeling.

as i said in my poem it is strange for us pisay peeps to long for our high schoold ays back while the others love college so wholly.


i guess we grew too attached to each other.

i want to speak for myself on cassy's departure.

i dont want to believe that the day will come that there will be no cassy to look for. no cassy to be bangag with. no cassy just be there.

i dont want you to leave cass. seriously. in the past just how many months i've actually known you, it just seems wrong that we'd have to part. i guess i was amazed that after three years of barely acknowledging each other's existence we discover how similar we are. or how different in a complementary way.. i cant type now.. it's been a talking dryspell since the tabulas down time. yeah trying out diffrent blogs has dampened my blogging spirit,,

it is the second day in a row i considered not blogging...