one month worth of blogging

sunday, july 24, 2005
our line is funky.. when the pc is on, the line is out. when the pc is off hte line is okay. zonkers i say zonkers.
woke up to an almost empty house, ate breakfast while reading PDI. it is STILL my dream to be published in youngblood. i have 12 years more to try haha...
my parents arrive and they have been shopping. my dad shows me the books my ate bought. shit. 1,750 lahat.. she bought chicken soup for the teenage soul tough stuff, the 7 habits of highly effective teens and how to make friends.. yeah i know. expensive!..
my dad sadi i coudl buy new pants today but im too groggy to leave the house (have been reclining the whole day... reading chicken soup etc.. have so many books to read!!! haha started faust last night. im happy! :D)
bah ue beat up so now we are tie with them at 3-1, *as of yesterday* feu stil leading with 3-0, admu and adamson at 2-2.. gah i dont know dlsu's stats.. dont care..
anyway.. pc with no dialtone means ugly life.. bye.. will read 7 habits of highly efffective teens even if i detest self help books.. :P
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i woke up from my slumber since 4.. yeah it's 530 now.. at 630 will be leaving for church.. haaay.. my sis is sick.. she ahs killer colds and sore throat.. so she wont be going to school even if it hadnt been cancelled tomorrow...
yeah.. i should be doing my ie 10 homework but, i say!, i need the net for that. or an ie book.. hehe.. how am i suppossed to know the things ies do without the net??gah must drop by eng lib for the fourth time in entire college life..
.bah.. must make pedigree thing for bio but i have chosen no trait..
gah and bah have been my new words of annoyance instead of.. i can remember what i used to use haha
am still not able to process fully harry potter HBP.. hmm..
it is better that OTP but not quite as good as GOF..
**am using forumspeak.. HBP is halfbloodprince, OTP is orderofthephoenix and GOF is gobletoffire. likewise, SS is sorcerer'sstone, COS is chamberofsecrets and POA is prisonerofazkaban *bah have fogotten spelling of azkaban.. * there that is it**
also the ending was sort of.. droopy.. i could have stopped at chapter26 and have earnestly waited for book 7 instead haha..
yeah. i was online after chap26 and proclaimed i have reached the point where i do not want to go on nor leave the book. haha.. i should have just gone on and gotten over it.. haha
i was thinking of rereading the thing but for the second time in my life, i read a harry potter book so thoroughly i noticed the details.. :P
did anyone else notice that slughorn called ron rupert?? this made me laugh since rupert grint plays ron in the movies... haha
i would say in which part but that would be spoiling the others.. :P
watched gilmore girls the first time since forever.. haha in six weeks lang naman and found out that zara, denice and ahjh are also fans of the show. zara said she likes dean but not in the fourth season haha..
the episode last night was.. third season? jesse was there so i think so.. haha and lane was still living in her momma's house :P
i think i finally made a youngblood-worthy article.. that kinda came by chance instead of force.. i was backlogging about palma and melchor and how choosing one or the other was like choosing which group of friends i would be hanging otu with that day..
anyway.. i mean to send it to PDI as son as the net is okay again. i suggest my mother call techinical support. damn digitel... waht is wrong with usign teh pc??
we're not killing the line EVERYTIME we're on the PC..
gah! must call gracie to tell her how very old she is haha.. she turns 17 today.. blast it why no net on bday of crucial friend??
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jul25, 2005
damn! just typed up whole thingy for socsci1 and pressed do not save. must type again.. horrible life of mine.. gahahahah! buying new pants today.. must be happy about this day somewhat.. *writing style in sort of bridgetjonesy way sorry. must rekindle my own style of writing...*
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jul26 2005
had shock of my life. i got published!! in youngblood today.. nina and momz texted me and i was ecstatic all through math thinking of which one got to print. it was my idealism one that i wrote after i read a cassy blog... the afternoon after we had a minidiscussion in socsci about gloria. etc. it was edited so i know it sounds better than i actually did. (i read my orig. elch ugly! :P) seriously, thank you to person who edited.. :D
haha when i read it i said i couldnt have done it that well and yeah i didnt nga.. check my jun22 post on tabulas.. i think its there... yeah it is..
and compare it to the edited versionin the paper!! hehe yeah i still write scattered.. i should get some one to teach me how to undo that..
natupad na ang pangarap ko! narealize ko na pwede ko nang ierase yung 8 files ko na unedited unformed youngblood hopefuls... haha yeah pangarap ko nga ito. i alway open the paper on tuesdays and saturdays (tues-sat lang ba talaga ang youngblood? im not sure.. hehe but thats when i usually see them) hoping to find my name.. and here!! my article!!
haha i can die happy now... but im not gonna die! coz im too happy!! woohoo!!!
it's my first time getting published in a national newspaper. EVER. :P
sad when i found out that kirsten left today. i didnt know :( bye kirsten.. have fun, good luck. type, YM, email. will see you on december.. OR ELSE! :P
take care of cassy
and cassy, take care of her back.. haha
wala lang.. missing cassy.. the word of the day today is cassandra. yeah i know. pampaiyak haha.. oh well.. cassandra the word is like the cassandra in mythology., meaning seer oracle etc.. anyway.. done with ie10 hw!! pambobola lang though. sad..
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jul27 2005pau's bday! :D
nagSM kami dahi wala na namang ie10 haaaaay sayang ang pamasahe.. :P
shet knaina nagloloko na naman ang computer.. bwiset! :P
so yun.. ayan.. buhay... mukhang natatae si mark herras pag umaarte siyang umiiyak.. nanonood ako ng encantadia eh.. haay.. anwyay..
gumawa ng draft para sa slum book sa iec.. o yun na eexcite akong gawin yun hehe... pero wala pa akong pera pambili ng papel eh..
buntis na nga si karylle (alena sa encantadia)! at papatayin daw ni polo ravales yung anak niya sa harap ni alena... haaay kawawang bata..
anyway.. hindi nanood ng darna.. nagbabad sa telepono kasama si gracie.. :D
my bday is near! im happy! :D
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jul29, 2005
matapos ko magtype ng sandamutak na eklat tungkol sa araw ko kahapon at ngayon at sa kasiyahan ko wala. naghang ang pc at may sira ang modem at ang media player.. soge mamatayka na computer.. bwiset..
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july 31, 2005 a minute or two past midnight
i noticed i have three computer scars right above my knee.. shit. i sound like a food-deprived bitch-whore but that comes from my reading of gossip girl since.. 1030? yeah it was given to me by din and gina. lovely girls, thank you..
gah..
am seriously in state of deliriousness, what's the word for that?
my writing is a blend of bridget jones and the gossip girl format..
shit fuck damn. yes, while in state of utter numb confusion i use profane language often haha.
up lost to admu. fuck. we won against dlsu who won over ateneo so we should win against ateneo but no. shit. hell.
ayoko na.. ang gulo ng buhay.. gusto kong matuloig para may mabasa pa ao bukas pero busy as hell yung day ko tom..
1030-1130 mass12 meet for yfc1-5 covenant orientation
gah must find time to email mizuho!! cant at night giving her too little time to get it xeroxed.. should text her to volunteer print-xerox myself.. must ask them for funds..
i long for an mp3 player.. kahit 64 mb lang buhay na ako. i can live with only 20 songs...
i want whole gossip girl series.. though have been apprehensive about bringing such profanity in house, im not anymore seeing as i have numerous texts that would scare ms mijares out of her stockings...
gah. shitty..
happy day though.. i think.. i was swinging from euphoria to unexplained rut-dwelling in 20 minute increments..
got to gateway at 11. got pissed at unspecific whereabouts of friends. bought tickets. ordered. feared giant bill. waited fruitlessly for latecomers aka friends named haz iel and yen. went to game. had fun for most part, sleepy for the otehr. stressed over noise level in cramped studio with 25 other human beings. had time of life trying to get myself and otehr 25 hmans to fit in walletsize pic space. left, went home. left. ate dinner out. left. ate desert at cello's (thought of doughnuts making me feel puke-y. ugh weird.. hate hormones..). went home. submerged self in gossip girl. turned on computer to talk pointlessly.. haha
saw pau thrice.. in gateway near pizza hut, in araneta in upper b and in katipunan in front of yellow cab. haha serendipity? i guess..
got billion hugs today. wondering if that's bad for you.. hmm.. disturbed at parents' comment that by third year we will be having our seperate friends.. hope not.. i wanna revert to being pisay again..
wish i had pics of us.. need something to remind me of awesome quality time spent together today.. or techniacally yesterday..
miss net feverishly.. must have net!!!
am freaked out by din's story of kissing rock. must she turn so weird with her weird friends so far away?? hehe...
got uber many happy bday texts.. two to three i do not know who from.. must be determined in having fun tomorrow at yfc thing unless i die of giving up day for boring lectures over studying for socsci and preparing eng1 report. as if i need to.. gah!!! must email to joy to write for visuals.. cannot put that off.. unles sprint visuals.. which wouldnt be so bad really..
haay..
if only had net, would be chatting up almost strange people in voice of total and utter unembarassed speech. gah. strange.. ys strange.. not liking myself right now.. typing everything that pops into head.. should i stay or should i go? ill get a glass oif water.
by pc. you go back to sleep now.
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july 31 2005 1:45-ish am
i just finished gossip girl 7.. yeah medyo mabilis so i did continue haha..
a sure sign of my depression is not being able to sleep. how sad. i slept at 1 yesterday to wake at 8. meaning only 7 hours. 3 hours short of my weekend sleepathon quota of ten hours.. haaay..
i want to pop into the gym tomorrow but damnit i havent met with the trainer yet so after the stretching and 40 minute general warm up i will have ntohing else to do with myself.
so sad,, so right now it is early i will haveto wake up at 8 and i am bored and in need of communication. telephone. nope people's families are asleep and this is not an emergency depression. just run of the mill PMS depression.. gah. no net too so no IM-ing people who are awake.. there is no signal and hardly any hope of people idly lying by their phones waiting for a text from lil ole me.. so sad..
have organized my inbox and have proceeded in keeping all bday greetings (because i have a lot of anonymous greeters) and congratulatory texts for pick-me-ups when im down for reasons other than hormones..
so sad.. i think this shall go on in history as my happiest week, the "week" that was jul26-jul30 2005 yeah.. i was going home early and eager for physical activity other than kicking around a black and white ball.. yea i was happy.. but now the truth has hit me once more and i am plunging back into vat of selfloathing. fun? i wil bounce back in 20 minutes just you wait...
i hate my lack of net right now since it is impossible for me to talk endlessly to someone i can believe will react to everything i am saying so sad of my life. damn PMS..
i miss cass.. and i saw a girl in gateway from very faraway and i thought i knew her. when she passed i kept thinking who that girl reminded me of and it was kirsten.
yes having NUS people sickness (parang home sickness haha)... want desperately to get online to check if cass has blogged since her departure... gah. gah. gaaaaaaaaaaah...
i want to tag her to tell me what times she can go online on specific days so i can pretend that she is just "far off" in her house in front of SM with the kabangagan as before.. duh i miss cass..
sino kasama ko sa kabangan ngayon???
i miss physics classes with klar. she told me the story of her untold corny joke in physics and i realized i learn a billion things in physics because of her corny jokes with the quasistatic etc and now the hyper blue light and nonhyper red light..
yes mas hyper ang blue light sa red light dahil mas malaki ang frequency niya.. meh...
so katangahan daw ang pagsabi na "blue" ang isang tao na sad.. oh well klar is klar. i miss her too..
im having physics next sem and i dont think ill enjoy it as much without her..
yes. basically i am getting into the whole boring weekly grind pattern of getting up, getting to my classes, fraternizing with whoever my chosen blockmate classmate of the eng class is, tambay, eat, toki, math, walking to my classes, conversing with chosen classmate of the class, go to CR, tambay in melchor or AS leave and go home.. yeah.. for wednesdays it is wake up, go to ie class, keep self awake for full hour and romp freely wiht friends afterwards. or if i am especially GC that day i will frolick on over to my beloved bed and study. yes..
but soon i shall insert go to gym somewhere there.. yeah.. and hopefully next sem my gym visits will have paid off and i will have enough trust in my endurance to join sikad with hazy...

ayoko na.. parang ang routine na ng buong buhay ko.. i am blank in most classes save for math where i actually (re)learn things and have hilarious fun answering relatively easy questions and bio where i understand things haha..
gash i really want to shifty to bio..
"you and me i can see us dying.....dont speak i know just what you're saying...dont tell me coz it hurts!"
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hindi ko matanggap ang aking malabong pagtanggap sa buhay UP kohindi talganasanaysanay na akong tawaging paaralan ko itoat nasanay narin akong magpunta dito ng hindi tinatanung bigla ang sarili kung saan ako patungo pero ayoko pang masanay
as of jul31kung since jun7 ang pagbibilang natinisang buwan at dalwampu't apat na araw na ang nakalipasmeaning... 54 days!
meaning.. 54 dibaydedbay 7= 7weeks and 5 days! ayoko naang pangit
sa loob ng maliit na pitong linggonaging lunga ko na ang UPnaging ie na akohindi na ang ikinahihyang, ikinikimkim na clannish na pisaydil05UP na ako...
pero sa looblooban ko ayaw ko.
syempre pinangarap kong masanay sa kabaguhan ng mundong kolehiyopero hindi ko gusto ang kabilisankakaiba ang feeling koiba lang
nakikita nila akong bangag na putekper uuwi ng ilang araw dahil magaaralgago! ako ba ito??putangina! naguguluhan ako...
isa pa yan. nag,mumura na ulit ako.mauulit ba ang masaklap kong freshamn experience ng bad influence followed by three years of solemn legal badness?
ayoko nalang talga..
bigyan niyo ako ng bagong modem putangina!
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its 305 am
ive been playing around with adobe photoshop trying to come up with a new wall paper but noe.. i am not happy with the pics i have on file..so sad.. should sleep. hope i can find glorious sanctuary when i get back on my bed. ta-ta..
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aug 1 2005
for the first time in two months i watche d amovie and it's the free-tv cut version of the hot chick.. gah i resent ever loving that film haha kasi naman ang corny niya for most parts.. then again cute for the other parts..
for about an hour of the film i kept running up and down the stairs typing up the eng1 handout and watching the movie.. i thought i would drop in my bed before thew clock struck 11 but no. here i am. it is 1:15 and i am up and trying to make a better, more concise comparison paragraph.. haay..._______________________
aug 2, 2005.
inokray ni sir los banos ung paragraph ko.. haha thats okay :P... i think we did pretty well on hte report. had the shittiest time trying to answer socsci test. yeah hell i read ontly three articles out of 10 and read about 13.4% of the book readings.. yeah sad for me.. i hope i get at least 40% so i wont look so very dumb.. haaaay..
got the pi9cs from my bday! ang dami namin! at ang puti namin! haha... in fairness maganda ang smile ko unlike the past 6 or 7 studio pics ive had taken where i looked like a bus was about to run over me and i decided split secondly to not move and then realize how dumb that is and smile. yeah labo.. haah..
medyo hyper.. went to fitness first for meeting with trainer. basicalle i do a hell of a lot. with weights and stuff.. anyway.. i enjoy the treadmill.. hehe coz i dont feel like im working out at all.. yun before i went to fitness i bought a book and a mag. yes the mag cost more. 60 pesos more! :P the mag was teen people and for the first time in a long time i did not regret my mag buy haha i love teen people.. im gonna try cosmo girl! and elle girl out again soon.. sana magmovie kami tomorrow!!! please??? i crave a movie!! my last movie seen was shutter ba or mr and mrs smith? shutter ata.. basta matagal na!!! the book i bought is about a journalist for a gossip mag. well, growing into the gossip monger that i have, i willingly bought the book for a freaking 35 pesos.. haha it also helps that ive seen that book before and wanted to buy it for 60 pesos haha...
wanted to buy a P70 book : dancing in the streets of brooklyn about this girl who discovers the dude she thought was her father was really her stepdad and her dad was an alcoholic who left her family.. set in 1944 so added coolness!! and girl with a pearl earring for 110.. not yet but someday i will buy those... before i begin my collection of gossip girl books since i am now openly a gossip greedy gal haha...
haha was so happy because teen people came with free cd! thought would be useless in life but turns out there is gilmore girls video clip inside!!! lovely day! lovely lovely week! :D the clip was behind the scenes on the 100th episode which is in the fifth season.. haha plus the mag had pics of adam brody!!! *drool* AND chad michael murray! *double drool* haha :P
wala lang minsan masaya lang talga ako.. :P movie tomorrow! pls?? ill study for my bio test well, promise!!!
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aug6
well well well ang tagal ko nang hindi nagbubukas ng computer.. haha aug2 was a tuesday? we did watch a movie nung wed! at nilibre ko si jodie at binayaran ko half ng kay brucie.. yun.. charlie and the chocolate factory!!!! ang cute talga ni johnny depp!!!! :D
hehe bakit nga ba hindi na ako ng computer?? hmm.. kasi nagaral ko ng bio!!! oh yes naman.. habang nanonood ng tv.. amazing! in the absence of the pc i have learned to watch tv!!! oh diba??
nung thursday hindi rin dahil nanood ako ng tv.. hanggang oprah (meaning until 12) pati nung wednesday rin pala yun haha.. yun... wacthed last 8 minutes of AdU vs UP game.. hehe kasi naman ang tagal nila denice at zara dumating sa AS steps eh haha..
nadalian ako sa bio test.. basically dahil hindi ko nalang masyado finfret ang bio. ang kupal ko nga ako unang nagpass ng paper.. haha pero i know soon after me meron na rin nagpass dahil may nakita na akong familiar bio faces na dumadaan nung nasa AS walk na ako..
yun game. left after 5 mins of ue vs admu. pagdatin ko sa fitness first naabutan ko ba ung huling quarter haha.. nagjog ako sa treadmill! pero then again hyper akko nun.. actually ang tagal ko nang hyper.. maybe its the exercise or maybe its the tv but i do not know.. i just am.. haha
friday may meeting dapat ng 230 at ng 4 pero nagsm kami nila mitch, jodie at bern so 4 na kami dumating.. tapos nacancel yung meeting!! so umuwi narin lang ako with pau..
naggym muli at nakipagkita sa ate ko. umikotikot lang kami at sinundo na kami ng nanay at tatay ko...
paguwi nanood ng trenta minutos ng extra challenge, nagdinner at nagpuntang yfc kasma ate ko... okay lang pero nalalabuan ako sa ate ko.. ang lakas niya tumawa sa mga corny jokes ni joan at ang out of the blue niya magsalita..oh well.. i think she had an okay time.. me? i was hyper! :P
slept at 12 again. nanood kasi ako ng bubble gang.. hehe..
oo nga pala nasa pc ako ngayon dahil gusto ko ikwento ang aking panaginip!!
sa panaginip ko kelangan ko daw pumunta sa bahay ni mel. pero may pinuntahan muna akong lugar.. parang hallway thing siya pero feel ko parang deserted area lang siya ng mall.. tapos naalala ko hindi ko dala cellphone ko! nakacharge pa sa aking kwarto! oh no!
*SCENES I CANNOT REMEMBER*
nasa van kami with my sibs.. tapos may driver! wow! nagice monster kami.. hindi ko na alala kung kumain nga ako.. haha.. tapos sumakay ulit kami sa van at nagpullout of the parking spot yung driver. in less than a minute nasa harap na ako ng "bahay ni mel" (i know what mel's house looks like and it wasnt that but i thought it was.. later it WAS a restaurant haha) i go in and mel is there with her mom and i guess guests. i say sorry for being so early and not texting before i got there. then there is a frenzy of picking up colorful clothes off the floor. labo haha.. btw, mel and her mom are in full bohemian attire *bwahahahaha*. then when they are done cleaning, i talk to mel and say we were just at ice monster when the driver brought me here. i look out the window *which was really the entire front wall. this shouldve been a clue that i was in a resto haha* and ice monster is across the street a store over to the left. hahahaha... i said i didnt know how the driver knew where her "house" was. then she said sinundo na ako dati ng driver dito... hmm... odd..
*sCENES I CANNOT REMEMBER*
there is eating. and i have box full of pikones and tofi luks.. apparently you give people chocs and they give you some in return! hala! nandun si richard guttierez! and kids start flocking to him... i look left at nandun yung cast ng mulawin.. hmm.. :P richard guttierez is more kayumanggi and fatter in my dream.. maybe it was raymond ahahahahah... there so we start exchanging chocs.. orel comes up and gives me a hershey's smore and i give him a lot of random chocs. then richard/raymond guttierez gives me cream-os! yung chocolate covered haha and i give him some random chocs too.. hehe... i remember putting it in my bag.. so there.. i leave mel's "house"..
*SCENES I CANNOT REMEMBER*
i am apparently obsessed with an RPG.. introduced to me by some dude.. we are again in a van and we go to a place which apparentl has a roleplaying on that rpg or some sort. i get out of the van and walk around. i see a lot of random assumptionistas who i9 say hi to. then i see daph and people i know.. :D we go to the bathroom to change. all my pants and shirts are hung on a door of a cubicle but a random assumptionista knocks them into a puddle.. gah..
for some reason i see gina in a pink tank top (yes my dreams have colors.. ,mel was in brown, her mom in blue green haha) and hugs me and asks me if anythings new. while still being hugged i tell her that i am apparently obsessed with ths rpg..
*THIS IS A SCENE I DO NOT KNOW WHERE IT BELONGS*
i am on my way to the cr and the crs are odd. i see issa and she is taller. wearing a blue polo, kahaki skirt and brown heeled shoes.. she goes before me and you pee standing up. yeah odd i said. it is a fraky contraption if you ask me.. i say goodbye to issa. anyway.. there's this other girl i let go before me and she got sprayed with piss all over the front of her shirt and said it was normal for that to happen. gross!!!
anyway that was my dream.. should i still go to the UAAP later?? hmm.. parang tinatamad ako.. then again what do i do at home?? hehe
aug 7, 2005 11:00-ish
i am still working on my eng essay thing but it is turning out like a research paper.. i dont care.. ill insert some of my opinions in the last paragraph hehe..
still havent studied enough for math long test. gah. nagpunta akong bulabugan kanina. it was fine, i didnt play anything haha.. nakakatawa ang vice relay. vice as in bisyo. hehe so yung una beer, sunod yosi sunod wala lang pampahirap pushups jumping jacks at pagthread ng needle, yung sunod pag kain ng talong ang okra shake. yeah eew. tapos yung huling vice eating pabilisan dun sa isang pack ng chips. hehe. ang galing ni sandy sa yosi! fastest sa apat eh sya yung youngest! oh ha! hehe sinabay sabay niya yung tatlong stick eh. si frau hindi nakalight yung isa tapos si lizzie inisaisa.. go sandy! woohoo!! si bruce kawawa. siya kasi sa beer. isang can DAPAT nakastraw, eh tatakbo muna bago magvice so hingal siyang uminom. shet parang naiiyak na yung putek. si mitch at denice nagokratalong shake, kadiri!! haha kinain ni denice lahat ng mints ko after haha.. :P
nanaalo team nila mithc at brucie (black).. aw w...sayang ung lead ni lianne dahil hindi niya mathread yung needle hehe...
haha at ang galing nga pala ni lianne magpushups as in seriously.. si sir po paclapclap pa! cuano!!! is that u?? hehe labo ng putek kelangan tapusin ang essay para makapanood ng buffy habang nagppractice ng math :P...
nanalo nga pala kami sa normal relay (as in tumatakbo lang) shet halimaw tumakbo ni bruce at ash! hehe.. si denice ang bading rin tumakbo!!! woohoo!!! hehe ang galing ng green sa ultimate. at finally nagets ko na kung ano ginagawa sa ultimate :P.. frisbee nalang kaya ako?? takot parin ako sa disk!!! hehe.. soccer nalang ako next sem ano?? hehe fun! back to nationalism! :P
btw, went to gym with ate nung sat.. 7 pm na ang gilmore girls! at back to back siya! so last epi ng 3rd season at first epi ng 4th nun! ang galing! hehe.. nagugustuhan ko nang maggym dahil gusto ko lang manood ng tv haha.. buti nalang kasi cable dun.. if only mas maaga yung mga show na gusto kong panoorin :P.. up lost to feu aww.. went home with kate.. first time naming nagsama outside of yfc ang galing! :P
naaliw ako.. sa start ng backlog na ito, jul24 sabi ko *copy pasted*
"woke up to an almost empty house, ate breakfast while reading PDI. it is STILL my dream to be published in youngblood. i have 12 years more to try haha..."
shet who would have thoguht two days later??? haha ang saya ko parin kahit sabi na ni bianca from socsci1 na journ major na hindi na nagbabayad ng contributor ang inq.. :P published in the inquirer!!! my gally gally gash!!! my gulay! may gooshie gashee gally!!! woohoo!!
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august 11, 2005
shet. ang ganda ng closer but i am still not at half hehe.. ang galing ni natalie portman!!! woohoo!! and as always julia roberts is perfect haha..
watched honey. more of listened to it actually. haha. ang pagnit ng putek.. gagee parang typical bronx story. rags to riches etc..
i love brits. gahahaha.
shet ang ganda ng closer.. naaaliw ako sa character ni natalie portman!!! woohoo!! tanga lang ung character ni jude law eh haha..
wehehehe.. i have tanned arms! at malabo siya dahil may line talaga na maputi tapos across the line maitim na hehe. and i am kind of an exercise addict.. naeexcite ako pumunta sa gym at nagsisitups ako pag nanonood ako ng tv sa sala.. haha ang labo talga.. naaliw ako sa pagtatakbo... o baka dahil nga ang saya ko lang since nung bday ko hehe. kahit na ang labo ng mga araw ko minsan...
gahaha continue with closer!
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august 23, 2005
it has been obviously bee forever since i last blogged. how sad of me. you could say i changed. with this past month of internetlessness i've learned to watch tv, talk to my parents and like the gym. yeah space fillers i know. so now, for all to know i watch sugo and attic cat every fucking day. yeah. sad. not really sometimes it makes me happy. but as you may notice, i havent even been backlogging. there is one supreme reason behind that. when you watch tv, you see your sordid little thoughts slither away. but it is an illusion. a numb version of yourself. you feel happy because of the emptiness and your head is just as light. it consumes you. it does.
i was hoping with the Easter of my computer the blogging feeling will be back. that i would go back to my sick sad loner home self and send hours on end online trying to simulate human communication. but no. the pc is dead, and it has yet to be named Lazarus or Jesus. i digress. obviously so.
i realize this past week that i miss cassy. oh hell yes i do. i saw a chick walking past me behind AS last monday and she was wearing a black shirt with a glittery cat on it. it took me a while to figure out but i remember that glittery cat from spending cassy time last summer in TLC. it will scare the hell out of me when i see someone in cassy pull-y pants.. then i keep looking in crowds and taking double takes since i see a fleeting glance of "cassy" or "kirsten" yeah. hallucinations are bad. and now. i copy pasted cassy's blog onto a disket and i read them just now. i could cry if i was that into it. im trying not to. it would be to no avail..
klar and am are going to singapore during sem break. how i envy passport weilders. the plane tickets werent that expensive. i just dont have a freaKINg passport. i cant leave the country.
later i will be watching sugo and attic cat and feel the emotion and thought seped away from me. i will feel the evil idiot box numbing my braincells into thinking miguel will save the day and that kevin will marry noreen. thus making me pawn to its evil hypnosis to believe in happy endings.
so it is here in front of the pc that i realize these things. that the tv may have kept me company this past month but it has not aided my personal understanding. and yet, it has improved my communicaton with my parents. i hang out in their room when i am bored with my little hellhole and i used to watch darna and encantadia with my mom...
therefore? therefore nothing.
it is simply to say that the more i sit in front of the tv, the less i feel like myself. i cant wait to get my home net connection bacjk and get back to my life like it used to be..
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i realized something. reading cassy's blog fills an abnormal void in my brain that corresponds to bangagness and depression at the same time. reading am's blog informs me more than anything else. mariel's blog makes me question if we truly are friends. haha. yeah.
it just has different effects on me. reading cassy's i have to stop after a while since i cant take the kabangagan or the depression inone swift blow. with am i can read all day as long as i have no envy when she mentions about photography or japan. haha. and mariel? she seems like she's having fun in lb.
am i having fun in upd? i dunno how to classify things. i dont like my GEs which are barely attune to my interests so i have a great desire to just drop them. haha drop them all!... sad. i know only very well..
so now i have ie friends. it still irks me to hear ppl say ie na talga ako. but wth? i only actually hang out with nina, mel, ching and hazel of the dil peeps... meron pa nga bang iba? basically them and we dont really have kindred schedules. so what do i do? drown myself in ie bonding. yeah well. hi princess, bern, denice, zara, sandy, pau, gaye, jireh, miggy, tazha, brucie, jodie, stevie, santy, adrian, mitch, eric, c3, j3, etc. you're all my fallback bitches. haha. i dont actually know what that means so dont ask me to explain. thank you.
im ever so slightly confused with myself right now. i keep backspacing after typing since i think i have lost my odd sentence ununderstandable blogging structure. haha..
it feels extremely odd blogging.
im posting this tomorrow at some internet cafe. im spending 4 hours at the gym tomorrow. i went yesterday and have no arm pains today. i dread having to increase my exercising rigor.. gah..
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probably nobody knows but i have turned into an exercise freak. hte first week in the gym i was excited. the next few tinatamad na ako. it turns out however it has a different affect on me too. when i buy food i check the nutri facts for a calorie count. i know i can work off only as much as 300 calories for a two hour stay in the gym. yeah strange of me. but that;s only for snacks. for meals i dont give a fuck. ill eat what i need to eat to get me through the day. even if it means two servingd of carbs in the morning. yeah, i now know these things. as if i didnt before.
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august 25, 2005
acle day! yes i did go to the my sassy girl thing and im happy i did coz the movie;s great. im gonna buy a dvd and of windstruck too since i didnt stay to watch that there. yes, i did go to the uaap game. but that's because gina texted she would be coming. had a hell of heat crammed into my head. damn. bad. yeah. hehe. we lost. as i predicted but it was fun for some time. hehe. :D
excerpts:
jod: lord, isasangla ko kaluluwa ko para manalo UP ngayon! isingko mo na ako sa math okay lang! manalo lang kami.. ipapanakaw ko pa cellphone ko!!
gina: ako rin! kaluluwa ko rin!
jod: oh yan dalwa na yan! sige na! manalo na kayo!
princess: hindi ko na pagpapantasyahan teacher ko sa math pag manalo UP!!!!
oh diba ang ganda??? hehe ang galing lang naaliw ako sa kanila.. later ang saki tng tiyan ko. i predicted baka dahil sa sisig ulit dahil pasaway ako't kumain nun muli kanina... pero hindi pala.. mild dysmenorreah lang pala haha. yeah labo.. basta! :P
hindi ako makakpuntang catharsis bukas.. aww... maggym kami ni stevie!!! woohoo!!1 baka magnet nalang ako sa SC bukas ng hapon dahil 4 pa pwede si stevie umalis.. haaay..
at gagawin ko pa ang proj ko sa bio na 5 weeks ago pa inannounce na hindi ko parin sinisimulan! oh yes!! am i not a very responsible girl..??
i love my sassy girl. malaki siyang malabo pero ang cool dahil nakakatawang ewan siya.. plus the girl is so pretty! :D yay!!! mga baliw pa mga tao kaya i guess bonus yun.. :D
bibili na nga ng 2-movie dvd ng my sassy girl at windstruck sunod na magkaroon ako ng total ng 300 pesos sa wallet ko! :P *bakit 300? dahil nakakatamad dumaang riverbanks. syang naman lakad ko kung isang dvd lang bibilhin ko :P*
posting real soon :D
august 27, 2005
its my dad's bday.. and bruce's too.. anyway.. hehe.. dapat may meeting ako with am and annalee right now but no.. they are not replying to my text mesages.. haaay bad trip.. reply damnit! i dont want to leave the house for nothing!!!
anyway.. i promise im posting this today.. yes i am.. woohoo.. after over a month of backlogging i will only post it at some internet cafe.. ihave long since forgotten what i have typed here but what the hell. carpe diem. i wouldnt backlog anything too embarassing to blog would i? hmm.. someting to think about..
so it is now 8 and we are suppossed to be meeting right now.. haha mean,,
when i being awakened i was "watching" (in my dream) a show about sarah geronimo.. yes and she showed her room. before and after a few years... both looked the same but the after had a frog lamp and some "fine print" at the bottom of the screen said "stop being kuripot! buy a paucous (?) frog lamp" something like that and it was aimed towards the filipinos who have been struggling financially. something like kahit walal kang pera magipon ka para makabili ng palakang lampara. haha labo..
before that was weird. "we" (enclosed in "" beacuse im more of just watching than actually being in the scene really) were in some kind of van, driving near gateway. yes, gateway. we had a radio/cd-player on board and they bought an expensive thing which i figured would be a recordable cd but no. it was a regular old tape. then they started recording stuff. actually just pressing the record/play button and leaving it that way. so then gina (she was there!) started singing and it was getting recorded. when we played it, there was hte movements of thecar sounds and gina singing..
there. that was all i could remember.. haaay. sad... :P
i misss logging my dreams but the moment i wake up i forget about them. why? cause usually i get up and say (in my head) damn, i dont wanna go to school today... anong oras na ba?
haha so no space for remembering vestiges of dreams.. oh yes how happy..
gina has been asking for regualr posts and cassy a tagboard. sorry cass the tagboard will have to wait until i finally have my home net connection fixed and, gina, i think this is what you were asking for.
i guess there's a lot of crap up there.. but hell that's what i wrote and im never one to edit my blogs.. that's what makes them different from essays!! gahaha.. bio proj has not been made yet. how sad of me to have a family that does exhibit different earlobe formations, different lenghts of the second toe and widow's peaks... should i still try the hitchhiker's thumb? damn it.. why family??? why???